Happy

Are you happy? Can you honestly say that you are? If you are not what is keeping you from being happy? Money? Status? Looks? Love? Relationship? Excuses? How do you get from unhappiness to happiness? Is it some level of attaining that something first before you can feel shangrilah?? Why can't you just make the decision to be happy. Feel complete because you want to. Why can't you just love the person you are and not let life's standards become you. We all have a choice to make our own. Yet we believe the lies. The world is caught up in this whirlwind of distraction and we cannot focus on what is important. Us. Our soul. Our dying spirit. If only we can hear that crying voice inside yearning to feel the joy we were born with. We miss that innocent happiness that we had as children. We avoid it. I can remember the feeling of being outside with my friends running all over the neighborhood playing chase, tag or hide and seek. Innocently , fearlessly. Not worrying about circumstances or the danger of young children alone on the streets. We were so very happy. Screaming making noise. Saying hello to the neighbors. Waving at the passersby in their vehicles. Talking with the local police officer. It was such an innocent time. I finally after all these years feel that happiness in my heart. Amongst all the daily stresses I face and not allow to penetrate. I arm myself with innocence. The innocence our creator gave us at birth. the joy we had as children. Some adults, and parents rob our youth of these delicate times. these memories never become. Their innocence is taken away. they justify this atrocity by pointing to their own childhood missing this glorious time. So now our children suffer. Is not the children of the world our most precious natural resource? A source of love and joy for all of us to protect and admire. To learn from to keep us sane? To remind us that life is precious. our world leaders are selfish. We are selfish. I can continue to go on about this. And with a passionate roar yell from the top of my rooftop. What will that accomplish. All I can do is love you. Love my family. Love my children and their children. Reach out to the reachable. help the people that allow. Look in that mirror of yours and listen to the image looking back at you telling you that you are a piece of you know what. The image in the mirror is perfect. A perfect creation or Lord has made. That image watches us all the time. Waiting for the image and the life to meet and become one. When will we become one with who we are suppose to be? When will we love innocently, fearlessly and unconditionally as a child does to their parents or caretaker. Nuf said. I love you!

What Do I Paint? What Should I Create? WIll Anyone Like It?

This is a heavy subject for me to write. I, like so many other artists, are always struggling with what we should create. Is it in my best interest kind of thing. Should I create a piece that might not be marketable. Our society has given us so many lines not to cross. These lines are drawn in so many ways from different directions. We look at ourselves in the mirror and see what the media wants us to see. Im fat and ugly. I do not fit in. My art work is not going to  measure up to what standards the art world has put out there. This is so ridiculous. I am not a very intelligent man and I can only articulate myself a certain way. I speak from my heart and I do not give a shit what you think. I am who I am and I am a product of the likeness of perfection. My creator gave me a gift of life to do with it as I see fit. I have a freedom to feel the way I want to feel. No matter what chains are shackled on me I can feel the way I want to feel. I can imagine what I want to. I can smile, laugh and be happy whenever I feel. I can be positive and be a great person. I can be the light for anyone in despair. I can create my work to suite MY needs. IF anyone relates to it than it will be a plus. For all of you out there that are struggling with the lie, That you are not good enough and the world will not accept you.....wake up to your life today. To the gutter with everyone that thinks this way because that is where you belong. Be in love with yourself and all that you are. You ARE beautiful. All that you are is beautiful. Your gifts are yours. Do them. Bask in the sunshine of your life. It is your light. You were born happy. Be happy. Dont pray to God our Lord for happiness. Dont ask him to have pitty on you to give you the strength to be happy. What is funny is he gave all the tools we needed before we were born. We had that joy in us all along. Figure the shit out. He gave you Joy. You have it. Let it out. BE who you are. Ok. I know it is easier said than done. I am sitting here laughing because I remember when I would tell my mom the same thing. Yet my mom is my perfect example. Abused wife. The eldest of all her siblings. Immigrant. Yet she rose to the ocassion as so many other americans. She was positive above all of the challenges before her. She conquered her obstacles and tackled the most heart felt circumstances. She would turn to me and say: "Mijo! reach for the stars, they are right in front of you. reach out! Touch them! Dont make excuses. Life is short!" My mom is 74 and loves the marathon experience. She has been doing it over 20 years. Run walk jog crawl. She finishes it. She lost her son husband brother and over the past 15 or so years has lost many other younger siblings and still she is so positive. Wow . What a role model. She is an amazing woman. My best friend. The love of my life. Great example of joy manifested. So quit your bitching and moaning about your life. Suck it up! I am sure we all have that someone in our lives that is always running over the challenges in their lives we can look up to. Ask them yourselves what keeps them going. I am sure they will tell you their love of life and the joy they feel.

So. What should I paint. What ever the fuck you want to paint. Sorry for the profanity. But sometimes too much sugar in the morning coffee puts us to sleep. Sometimes you have to really taste the shit to affect you and wake you UP!. As always. I love each and everyone of you that read this blog.

Create Art For Yourself.

I have been ask recently why I have been writing about non art related subject on my blog. Am I writing non art related? This is about creating a life for yourself. A life of happiness. We are imagining something beautiful and we are creating this imagery in our minds. Then we contemplate and plan how we are going to manifest it in our lives. Isnt that the same process of creating visual art? So there is the answer. IF it does not resonate with you then click close on this blog. Besides in order for me to create art I need to be happy. Not sad. I am a moody person at my core. Moody in the sense that I feel emotion for everything. I am a softy when it comes to my grandchildren and kids. I always cry when it has been a while since I have seen them. I get emotional when people love my work.I hug everyone. I feel bad when the people that I manage have a bad day.

When I create it has to be a inspirational moment. It has to be a grand gesture to my soul. I have to create something that smiles. So I need to be happy. I need to feel joy. Part of being me is being able to have control of my life. For so long I did not have control. I let the world take control. Lately I have been feeling trapped and it is my fault. I have a wonderful job with good people. I have a great life. I have opportunities that only people dream about. I have my freedom. I love that I have a choice to be happy, healthy, able to wake up and choose to do what I do whatever it is I want to do. I live in a country where I have the choice to be good. Today I have a smile in my soul. I exist as I want to. I make the choices and it is so. My art is mine. I create for myself and I am thankful. I have had a wonderful few years meeting so many wonderful artists that come from different genres and paths. They create in so many different ways. They have their own special passions and I love that about each and everyone of them. They are all so special to me and have had so much of an influence on me. Some of them have been a joy to know and some have ...lets just say they were a learning experience for me. I have had a wonderful time creating with them and showing my work along side of them. Learning from them. Now I have backed off and am on my own. I will now go forward to pursue my vision. I have fulfilled that part of my life that needed to be experienced. This experience has been so beautiful. I have created work to make people happy. That has always been my dream. I still have that dream. I still have so much inside of me to give to others with regards to my art. The art I create for myself will hopefully be an inspiration to someone else.

 Isnt that why we create? To inspire? I hope this is why we create as artists. I hope that for you artists that create on a daily basis will not tell an artist with their passion that it will dwindle away and become a chore. I hope that you the artist that is so talented and it comes easy to you will always find the time to inspire someone young and old new or old to the arts. I hope and pray that you will inspire people with your gift. I hope that while you create the art for yourself you think of those eyes that are watching you and looking up to you hoping to be like you...I hope that you stay humble. Because to them you are something big. You are special. They wish they could create like you. Stay humble. Reap the rewards of good karma. remember why you do what you do. I want to always watch you because I think the world of you.

Leave it behind you!

The idea of thinking and feeling positive is that you have to be always aware that your thouights can change your life. You can be feeling like crap and crappy things are going to happen. When you feel great and are happy no matter the challenge in life you will experience positive things. Sometimes I am feeling so happy and when I am alone with my thoughts...other crazy ideas and emotions creep into my mind. I start to wander around my past and posibilities. I start to reminisce about what decisions I have made throughout my life that have affected others. Could I have done something different to make life easier for someone I love? Have I hurt others because of my selfishness? Have there been loved ones that I could have reached out to before they perished? So many what ifs and could have beens? Is it worth to revisit? If to learn from those experiences I say yes it is ok. As long as it is all in perspective for you. You have to know going into doing that mental research that it is the past. You cannot let it affect you in anyway. Who you are now, hopefully, is a wonderful caring positive loving person that has risen above all of the crap from the past. Do not torture yourself with the baggage of guilt and regret. Look forward to a wonderful place in your life where you can forgive yourself of the negative choices you made. Choices that might have created a very uncomfortable world for you. If anything look at it as a strengthening of your character. Now you know what NOT to do going forward.

Life is so beautiful. It is a gift everyday we wake up. We need to spend the precious moments appreciating each other and loving one another. I say again and again. Quit your bitchin and moaning and get to feeling joy! Create yourself a life of happiness. Be a life artist and create Joy!

Random

my day started this morning being thankfull for waking. being thankful for breathing normal. not having a disease or illness that keeps me from enjoying my life unninterrupted. i open the blinds and see the bright morning sun. i feel the sun warm through my window. i hear all the birds as they wake and call their families to join them in song. i hear the dogs bark to wake their masters. as the morning progresses i can hear the freeway rush sound increase. sirens start to blare. the alarm clock goes off. the anxiety sets in because now i have spent those early moments not doing a damn thing and i am late for work. now i am rushing to get out the door. people cutting me off. speeding to catch the hour. hurrying to be on time. chasing that minute. stressing out over the lingering thought of possibly getting a ticket for speeding. insurance premiums raising. gas prices on the rise. co workers with bad attitudes. not enough pay. the morning turns into a chore right away. job description is not what i imagined. fear keeps me there. fear of change. eating lunch. too many calories. not enough nutrients. burgers are making me sick with fats and grease. drank too much soda. feeling sick after the lunch break. cannot focus on the rest fo the day. ready to go home. family calls with bad news. worrying about them. friend calls with gossip. annoying information too much information. co worker gossiping about someone else. i am really busy. cant focus. yet my boss is telling us we are slow. worrying about losing my job. the hour is here. didnt get anything done. driving home. driving 25 miles at 20 miles an hour. late to pick up the kids at daycare. they charge for that. running out of gas on the freeway too busy to fill up. running on empty. remembering what the doctor said. lose the stress lose your life. blood pressure is high. grinding teeth. paranoid about the spouse always online at night. WTF? why am i doing this? wait there is more. need to go to the groceries. Need to pay the tags are late. insurance is due. rent/mortgage is due. taxes need to be done. clothes are getting tight. need to take a shower. gas is expensive! check engine light is on. i need a drink. i need to run away. have to get the kids. have to see my mom. dad just died. mis him. mom misses him. need to console her. she lives 60 miles away.

but wait there is more.........

How do we silence the confusion in our heads. for some of us this is a daily ritual. Going through a laundry list of duties and respnsibilities that are never ending. we start out the day appreciating end the day hating life. there was a time where I was thinking this way. the examples I gave are somewhat a parallel to the life I lived. At some point you have to change or modify this destructive way of thinking. We internalize our life in a negative tone at times. We do not realize this destructive thought process. Instead of showing appreciation throughout the entire day we throw the white flag up at first sign of distress. then we began to chase our tail the rest of the way holding on until it is time to sleep.

How do we change? Be happy. Love yourself. Love your life. If something in your life makes you uncomfortable. make a change. Modify your outlook on life. Instead of saying "I guess" say YES! Instead of whining, find a solution. Instead of sitting on your ass eating twinkies...go for a walk. Instead of yelling at your kids because you had a bad day, hug them and kiss them to recieve their love for some of that healing. Love is always healing.

Make a choice. the right choice. Go in the right direction. Free yourself from the drama.

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I write my heart and soul and som read and take offense. Dont read my friends. If this offends you then dont read. I will continue to write. I am not saying anything offensive. i am giving words of wisdom. My view, my take on life. I am trying to inspire people to live their lives happy. I do not know how that is offensive. I am not cramming it down your throat. You chose to read this page. You made the decision to click on my blog, or you typed in my web page here. I did not call you or contact you. If you accessed my page through facebook you were my friend and had seen my address there.

We all have the ability in life to make a choice in anything and everything we do. We make the choice to eat that twinkie and gain a few extra pounds. We make the choice to have that one beer that led to a six pack that led to a DUI. no one forced you. You had a character flaw in you that allowed you to be influenced by your peers to take a hit which led to a termination based on a drug test that was administered the following day. No one to blame. You decided to call off the relationship and regret it knowing you made a mistake and cannot get that person back. We all have a choice.

We have a choice to make the right decisions. We have a choice to wake up in the morning happy and appreciative of the wonderful day we are given. It is how we percieve life as to how we are going to experience it. It is how we internalize our daily experiences to dictate how we are going to feel. this is an amazing life. We are so powerful of a race. We are the human race filled with diversity and color. Filled with talent and wonder. We are so powerful we can do anything we set our MINDS to. It does not have a limit as to how. It does not have a limit as to where. We can and we are and we will. We WILL it to happen. We are going to make it happen and we can acheive. Ever heard the term "make your mind up" well that is very real. Once you make your mind up to anything you want you can have it all. Happiness and joy are the first things we should always be thankful for and desire. Isnt that what we ultimately crave anyway. We look for that feeling through material things. We think we can achieve this joy through external sensations. We already have all we need within us. We can find all of our lifes answers internally. All we have to do is listen. Quiet yourself and listen.

If you do anything else today, focus on joy.

There is more.

What a wonderful time to be alive. We have so much technology at our availability that we can learn so much about humanity and each other. Yet we choose to work negatively towards our lives. We choose to make horrible decisions to distract ourselves from our reality. Our reality is happiness and joy. We have taken a road as a whole to avoid the real person we are. We are a very loving race. A creature in this world created to love and be loved. We find so many ways to damage that legacy. The legacy that was given to us by the entity that created us. There is so much proof of this theory that there is a united movement to trash that legacy and say it is false. Science has spoken out in support of the theory of intelligent design and there is growing proof. Researchers have disected what they can of our DNA and what we are comprised of to the core of the atoms that support everything we are composed of. They have viewed that atom and found that there is a smaller world within our atoms to be explored. Energy flows. We can manipulate what shape they take. We are in complete control of our core. We are in complete control of our life. And  yet we rely on something else. We rely on someone else to influence us. We fail to inspire ourselves. We fail to look within our own soul and spitit for answers. Where does this innate hate for what has created us come from. Why is it so strong? I do not understand why there is such a war against love. Why? I love you. All of you. I know we all have some kind of pain we hold in our hearts that sometimes direct the path we take in life. We all develope that fear within us that manifests itself as a roadblock to impede our progress. Fear is destructible. Some say a certain amount of fear is healthy to keep us humble and knowing where we come from. Fear is said to motivate us. Bullshit. Fear is bad. Love and confidence in ourself. If we did not have fear we would be insanely brave. There is a fine line between fear and discernment. Discernment is a map of choices. We make choices based on what we feel and our desires. We know instictively which direction to go. We know in our hearts by what we know and we avoid the roadblocks someone else is creating for us. If we are in tune with our soul, that innate divine energy we are given as a gift at birth, we will know which direction is where we will reap the benefits of being humble to our voice. All is am saying is to quiet your mind. Listen to your deep voice. It is very quiet in this world because of the distractions. You know what they are. Get rid of that shit. Focus. Quit making excuses.